Not a Word for the Snow

OLYMPUS DIGITAL CAMERAI rise early in the morning, before the light has changed from midnight to the gray that precedes the dawn. A look out the window confirms the wisdom of this. It has snowed—perhaps five inches—and is snowing yet, rather steadily.

I debate the order of things. Coffee? Shower? Shovel? Shower first. If I go out there now I’ll simply have to clean off the car again before I leave.

By the time I am washed and dried and sprayed in place, the light is graying. I layer pants, t-shirt, sweatshirt, two pairs of socks, snow pants, boots, coat, gloves, mittens, scarf. No hat to mess up my hair.

Then I step out into silence.

No cars. No wind. No branches swaying.

No snowblowers.

I lean against the cold brick arch that frames my door, dumbstruck. I have never, even in the middle of the night, ever heard silence outside of my house. My house which stands but a hundred or so feet away from a four-lane highway, from whose windows through the bare trees I can see the exit ramps for the freeway.

And then I realize that it is not quite silent. There are birds. Small voices piercing through the cold, calling me to take up my task.

Then my boots. Then the taking up of the shovel. Then the Scrape.

But even metal on concrete sounds soft, hushed by the snow that fell silently all night and which now shames all sounds. A semi truck lumbers down the highway, but says not a word for the snow.

The gray light eases to pink.

And still no one on my street is about. All sleep soundlessly in their beds.

I ask the snow to move aside, show it a better place to lie. At my suggestion, bare sidewalk appears at my feet and I walk slowly on, up and down the sidewalk, back and forth along the driveway.

And each slow scrape of my shovel wakes one more person in my town.

They do not realize what it is that wakes them, for the sound of it is but a whisper, but when they wake they know they have slept too long, let the snow go unchecked. With each scrape they rise and hurry into their clothes.

I see a car. Then a truck. The sky is white. This city is stirring now and I know my time runs short.

I come to the end of my task and turn to see my great accomplishment. But the bare sidewalk lies beneath new snow that does not know about the arrangement I made with its kin on my slow walk toward the street.

But I haven’t time to explain. I must go in. I must remove all of my clothing and step into something more suitable.

Inside again. Melting snow drips from my hatless head and sweat slicks my back and my neck. I tear away my wet clothes. The house is hot. Too hot. Who turned the heat up so high? Then I remember. I did. I turned it up this morning after leaving the cave of my bed.

And I want to write the silence down immediately, before it escapes, before the magic melts off.

But I can’t. I take up my hairdryer, my mascara, my necklace.

I slip once more out the door.

And all I can hear is an army of snowblowers.

The Kind of Writing That Fills Most of My Days

Now that my writing vacation is over, it’s back to the real world for a while. And what is that, you may ask? Why, copywriting. Yes, like a number of beginning novelists, my 9 to 5 involves practical writing, real world writing–marketing writing. And recently one of the authors for whom I’ve written back cover copy mentioned me on her blog.

Amanda Cabot, a lovely author and just all-around sweet person to work with, breaks down the creation of the cover for her latest book and I knew you writers out there would be interested in it, so click here and please enjoy!

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This is why you should occasionally take a week of vacation just to write if you have a full time job and are finding it difficult to set aside concentrated writing time. I had a goal for my week off to net me three chapters of my new book. Instead, I ended up with five chapters and a nice, encouraging total of 13,652 words–a little over 2,700 per day.

Because I waited to start writing until I was really, really ready (in other words, until I just couldn’t hold back the tide) I had very few moments when I struggled with what to say or what should come next. And it took about a year of musing, outlining, researching, and a few false starts to get there. Now I wish I had a couple more weeks off lined up this month! Still, if I make the time at night or during a few early mornings, I can still manage to keep up a nice pace.

I hope if you made any writing goals for the new year that you are actively pursuing them and that when your passion or energy inevitably fades (as mine will at times, I am quite sure) that you pick it back up before letting the dust settle.

Write on!

A Standing Desk

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How I love the cleaning and reorganizing of the first days of a new year. A couple days ago I spent some concentrated time in the sunroom where I’ve been writing. I showed you the space on New Year’s Day, but I did not show you the other side of the room, which, in the cold months, becomes a dumping ground for items with no home.

At the first sign of snow, the outdoor cushions get stashed here. Furniture that must be moved to make way for the Christmas tree ends up here as well, along with random items as diverse as birdhouses and remote control trucks and empty picture frames.

But on New Year’s Day I cleaned it all out and came up with this.

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The reason I focused on this area is because my husband and I have been considering the merits of standing desks. It occurred to me earlier in the week that the “pull-down thing,” which is the technical term my husband and I use for any door with hinges on the bottom, would make a perfect standing desk were it accessible.

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And it turns out I was right. Just put up the seat bottom of the old pew from my grandmother’s church and pull down the desktop and voila! Now we can easily move from the sitting desk on the south end of the room to the standing one on the north end of the room.

Don’t you just love finding the easy solutions you didn’t know you already had?

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Thoughts upon Entering My Mid-Thirties

When I was a child with elastic skin
I sat in the bathroom
and wondered at my mother’s eyelids
stretched into narrow fissures of flesh
by a finger at the corner
then traced with a brown pencil.

Now my son builds imaginary worlds
in the other room
unaware that I am looking in a mirror
stretching my eyelids into fissures of flesh
with a finger at the corner
and tracing them with a brown pencil.

A Letter to My Future Self

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This morning I wrote a letter to myself, sealed it in an envelope, and taped it to the December page of my 2014 calendar. On January 1, 2015, I plan to open it. I won’t tell you what it said just yet (maybe I will next New Year’s Day), but in it I made some suggestions and promises to myself. I hope to find that this year next time some hopes and dreams will have come to pass, some goals may be met, and some growth may have occurred.

As for writing goals, this year I have just one–to write, revise, and edit my novel so that, come 2015, I’m ready to query agents. I’ll do other writing-related things, like publish my ebook, The Intentional Writer, and my collection of 2013’s short stories (now planned for June to avoid rights conflicts). I’ll put the individual short stories up on Smashwords for you non-Kindle users. I’ll continue to write in this space.

But the main thing is the novel. I’m quite thrilled about it. The first couple days of writing have gone well and netted me close to 5,000 words and a lower back ache that is subsiding a little today.

Here’s where I’ve been writing:

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The big map is of Detroit and the markers are to delineate borders at various times in the city’s history and highlight spots affected by riots. The books include a number I’ve already read, some relevant ones I got for Christmas, and the sixteen new ones I just picked up from a couple used bookstores. Because, after all, the more you research the more you realize you need to know. I’m hoping I can get them all read as I work on writing the book.

My husband says it looks like I’m planning to go back in time and murder someone.

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But actually, I imagine the body count will be far greater than just one…